Monday, July 28, 2014
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Friday, July 25, 2014
This is my place to share my life and feelings as well as the work I do, the digital stamps, videos and other creative experiments...I may not always say something that is pleasing to everyone, and I may have opinions that not everyone shares. I have been vwey blessed over the last couple of years to have the support of my followers. They have been through life and death with me, traumatic brain injury and the joys of my life as well.
I never thought that life was all about ME, but to be honest- don't we all come from a place of "me" when dealing with emotions?
Diana=- I am sorry that what I had to say upset you- my intentions were simply to share my feelings and confusion on the situation. Please have a blessed day and forgive my insensitivity
Thursday, July 24, 2014
They moved all the heavy stuff and put most of it back into the rooms afterwards. Then I was able to get all the stuff back into the rooms and today will have to put it all away....ick. The carpet they laid down is the kind you put into an office, but it is the thinnest cheapest stuff the owner could find. Hopefully it will be ok, but frankly- anything is better than the filth they took out of here.
SO, two days lost to the carpet thing...I will have an image for you tomorrow....Off to work now
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
I am having a tough day and just need to tell you about it...Some of you may remember when, a few years ago, I was so excited to have been contacted by the daughter I gave up for adoption at birth. She is now 26 and married. At one point I bought an airplane ticket to go see her, non refundable (never make that mistake again) but she decided at the last minute that she wasn't ready to meet me yet. I graciously understood and continued talking with her. I allowed her to set the pace of any relationship we might have. She eventually met my other daughter and had her come to Pennsylvania to stay. They had a falling out and her husband decided that she was not to have anything to do with ME...I never figured that one out, but have been patiently waiting for the time that it would change. Recently, my daughter contacted me and we spoke on the phone for over an hour. I was hopeful of finally getting to meet her.
My father had to have his voice box removed due to a recurrance of cancer and has been very ill. My daughter decided that she wanted to meet her grandfather and made plans to fly out to Oregon to meet him. She said she would like it if my mom and I could make the trip up there to meet her also.
Then that next day I get a message from her saying that her husband told her that if I went to Oregon, she could not go.
She asked if my mom would still come up and I said I thought so. However, she went to Oregon to stay with my father and never told me or my mom she was going.
I found out through my other daughter that there was a post on facebook about how glad she was to meet her grandpa. Today I see a post that tagged my aunt of pictures this daughter took of her, my aunt, and my father.
I know I am being comletely irrational, but I am angry! I waited for over twenty years in the hopes that I would one day get to know this child. Yet, she wants to meet and know my family, but not me. I am the one who carried her for nine months and loved her enough to try to give her a better life. I understand that she may have adoption issues, and I have attempted to help her with those feelings. How in the world can she and I ever resolve the issues between us if her husband does not allow her to talk to me for fear she will get hurt?
I admit that I am angry that my family members get to have a relationship with her when I do not, and I somehow feel like they are being disloyal to me for allowing her to set conditions on that relationship- such as, you can't talk to Anji about me. I don't know for sure that this is the case, but so far none of my family has even mentioned that they are friends on facebook, talk to her, or anything...so I am assuming here.
I know that my anger is mixed with a deep hurt. My other daughter and my mother have stood by me, understood how I feel, and support me. I thank God for them, but that does not really help me divest myself of these awful feelings.
Telling you guys about it at least took some of the impotent feeling away and I am calmer. I am reminded of the Serenity prayer....
God grant me the serentity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
I guess this will be my mantra right now....and thanks to all of you who read through my rant...I miss hearing from you.
Friday, July 18, 2014
Saturday, July 12, 2014
Thursday, July 10, 2014
However, since I am leaving very early to go get her, I thought I would post the Friday freebie today... It is in honor of my Native American Heritage...
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Monday, June 30, 2014
dad had a thrd surgery to remove a blood clot, and is out of ICU again. Hopefully he can begin the healing process now.
I sold my first two orders of the hand dyed doilies and am so excited about that!
My cell phone is dead, so today I have to see if I can replace it. Small things like that keep me busy!
I am also very happy to say that we have noticed some improvements in my memory and other areas that were damaged by the TBI (traumatic Brain injury)
And now, a piture of my grandbaby...
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Monday, June 23, 2014
Saturday, June 21, 2014
I figured out a way to make them not bleed when used in mixed media projects. They are not foodsafe, though and should only be used for decoration or artistic endeavors!
I am in the process of refining some of the digis I made, so if there any you guys have liked in concept but thought could use some work, leave me a comment and I will be sure to fix them.
Dad had his voice box removed yesterday and is resting in the hospital. My daughter is looking more and more pregnant everyday. She shows like she is four or five months, but is only 8 weeks. We have been assured there is only one baby in there!
I am finishing up the editing on my next two videos and will have them posted to You Tube tomorrow.
I added a you tube button on the side of the blog here so you guys could go to the videos right from here. Also, if you become a follower of my you tube channel you will receive notifications when I post new stuff.
Thank to those of you who have gone over to dreamy memories on etsy to take a look!
Monday, June 16, 2014
Saturday, June 7, 2014
Nick and I are doing well. I am feeling a lot beter these days except for the hip issue, but that is just something I live with.
I am so excited to say that I am going to be a Grandmother!my daughter is due in January and the only thing that sucks is that she lives on the opposite side of the country than me. We talk on the phone or Skype almost daily, though and that helps.
I have been looking at my old digis and realized that they are mostly in need of fixing. The lines are too squiggly or too thin etc. I want to use my new drawing program to redo them, but I have a bunch of other stuff going on too. I am still designing and selling my stencils, designing counted cross stitch patterns for our business (Dreamy memories) and doing art journaling and other crafty projects. I am currently working on another mannequin. I want to make a few wall hangings that have been floating around in my brain. The yard work still has to be done.... And then there is the Ladies auxiliary at church. Oh, and last but not least- Nick and I are having our marriage consecrated in the church (renewing our vows) on Monday...
Whew it makes me tired just typing it all... Who knew I would be so busy after I became disabled to work?
I will really make more of an effort to come and post more regularly...and if I get the didgs done will post them here...and who knows, maybe I will get inspired to make some more!
Monday, May 26, 2014
I am so glad to be home and working at my art again... Here is the latest video link http://youtu.be/lEEMNAP6uWc
And it is related to huge news! My daughter is going to have a baby! and that makes me a yaya....woohoo
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Saturday, April 5, 2014
SOOOOO.... Endless Inspirations Stencils are now available for purchase at dreamymemories.etsy.com
here are pics of the first series...If you use promo code : anjisantics at checkout, you will receive 5% off any item in the shop. Click the link below each image to go to that stencil's page in the shop.
Saturday, March 8, 2014
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
hi all, i have bronchitis and am resting. i will try to get some photos posted for you today and update the links to the videos. please let me know if there is a digi you are eanting... if i can make it for you i will. send an email with digi in the subject. if you look back through the old posts and see something you want, let me know and i will repost it witjout the watermark....much love
Monday, March 3, 2014
I am happy to say that although I have not been making digis..I have been creating! I am about to launch my own line of Stencils! Called Endless Inspirations- they will be available through Dreamy Memories on Etsy.
I will post pics of the line soon. I have been making lots of videos as well, which you can find under anjisantics on you tube...check me out!!!!
Be back soon!